Running On....

Okay, I just want to vent about something that has been bothering me.  I don't know if I'm the only one who feels this way, or if others are secretly having these issues as well and just don't say anything.  I just don't want to sign my kids up for a million activities and cart them around everywhere.  I just want them to enjoy the summer by playing outside...to just be kids.  My reasons are these:  no matter where I take them, they don't seem appreciative;  one child is usually misbehaved while we are out (usually Marlena these days); they aren't asking to join Karate or Tae Kwon Do or Ballet or whatever.  I do enjoy taking one child at a time places like grocery shopping and to other special little outings, however these don't happen every day.  Am I the only one who doesn't relish the idea of being a taxi driver for my children?   Do I owe my children special favors because I brought them into this world?  I didn't get carted around like that when I was a kid....I just went outside and used my imagination and played.  I hear from other parents these days how their child is in you-name-it class or is going somewhere or other and then my own kids ask to go to a big waterpark, or something equally extravagant.  I feel guilty sometimes because I don't want to do these things.  Should I?  Maybe it's just not me...not "us".  I just don't wanna keep up with the "Jones'es".

....until the NCLEX!

I'm freaking out big time!  For some reason, I really truly feel like my brain has not retained anything I learned in school and I will fail this.  I've been studying and freaking, freaking and studying.   A lot is riding on this one exam.  For those of you that pray, please pray for me to have clarity of mind, calmness and optimal recall.  :-)  Thanks. 

I've registered.  I'm taking it on July 1st, at 2pm.  I am done with my job at UW as a Nursing Assistant and start my new job as a Graduate Nurse on Monday!  How exciting.  Myria spent the last 24 hours feeling sick and throwing up with a fever but now is eating cereal and feeling better, thank goodness! 

Okay, I'm really starting to think that I'm going through a sort of "debriefing" now that school is done.  My life is suddenly back to where it was before I was in school and me, Chris and the girls are not used to it being that way yet.  The girls want my constant attention because they think that they might not get it for a long time.  I still need to convince them that I will be here more often now, long term.  None-the-less, I am still spending far bigger than average amounts of time with them, to convince them.  I am feeling like everything I ever learned is somehow gone from my brain.  I do need to review but I took a practice exam with 100 questions and did fine on it, so I hope that means that I'm still going to be okay.  I NEED to pass that NCLEX.  It's $200 every time I take it and if I don't pass the first time, my income with get cut in half!  I need to pass.  I'm getting gradually back into exercise.  In the past 4 days, I've done a run/walk for 3 of them.  It feels great!  I'm actually looking forward to going out this evening.  :-)  But I still, at the base of things, need to relax.   I am starting to relax in degrees.  I'm helping out around the house, and that's a good thing.     That's about it right now.  I'm glad the nicer weather is here.   

I finished the second of two exams and I'm done with my preceptorship, so I think it means I'm done with school.  It feels weird!  I keep feeling like I'm forgetting something, or need to get something done, or need to be somewhere ASAP.  The pinning ceremony is Friday evening, and I have vacation this week and I intend to just relax for the next few days, when I can keep from doing housework.  ;-)